Staying with someone who is emotionally or physically abusive is more challenging than leaving. Once you are packed up and out the door, your life awaits you. However, when you stay, you don't see anything but what he wants, where he wants to go, how he feels, and so on; therefore, your life is put on hold. You find yourself working each day to maintain a relationship with someone who doesn't love or respect you nearly as much as you love him. How much more do you have to take before you tell yourself, "I will not work to keep my love alive for him." When do you walk away and stay away?
Missing someone is not the same as loving them. You might have took a break from the abusive man. You may have believed his promises he would do better. Instead of things getting better, they only worsened. You know what you have to do, but when?
The most difficult task is training your mind to live without your abuser while preparing your feet to make an exit. You worry about not having enough money, finding your own place, what people might think if you leave, and more, but worrying doesn't do anything more than hold you back. One must walk out on faith without permitting, "What if" statements to hinder you.
Daily you must tell yourself, "I choose to live my life without him. I will not remain in a relationship where I am not happy. I will no longer stress myself out trying to appease him. I will do the kind of things that will enrich my life--I owe it to myself!" The more you self-talk, the closer you will get to your goal: I will no longer labor to love an abusive mate.
When you first met the once charming, now very angry man, you didn't have all of the baggage you now have. You didn't experience difficult times with him--he was different and so were you back then, but you matured. Envision yourself emotionally and physically free like you were before the controlling man came into your life. Wasn't it nice to go and come as you please? Didn't you enjoy moments where you sat back and did nothing without a care? What about those good times when you didn't have relationship problems like your loved ones and friends had with their men? You know you can still re-claim your freedom--you owe it to yourself!
Remember you can't change your abuser, focus on you, get free, and God will do the rest.