Feelings of Resentment - I Started Wishing They Didn't Come Home
I wish I could say that my feelings were isolated to one of the men who hurt me physically, but after getting out of that violent relationship and starting afresh with others, I felt like I was walking on eggshells with them too. I started wishing that a couple more didn't come home either. The sexist behavior, selfish ways, and the superiority complex that came with these men gradually showed up as I learned more about them. It didn't matter that they were "so nice, didn't hit me..." but their words and disloyalty did. The pain at times was far worse than what the physically violent man had done to me many years before--the ache was in my spirit and didn't go away at all for one person I was in a long-term relationship. As for the other man, those negative feelings came and went and then returned again when the next offense showed up and the next. What was going on with me was not only unresolved issues of the past, but a strong desire to make things w...